In the Midst of Me

Why do I doubt You oh, Lord, when You have continuously proven Yourself to me?

Why do I doubt You oh, Lord, when You have told me that You have chosen me?

Why is my heart tangled in a series of questions questioning Your existence, if I have seen how You have worked in my life?

Why am I feeling alone, when I know You have promised me that You will never leave me nor forsake me?

Why am I like this?

Lord is there something wrong with me?

If there is, then make things right for me.

Is it my faith?

Then embrace me even more, so that my mind won’t fool me and start raising questions that are not supposed to be raised.

Open the eyes of my heart Lord, because I wanted to see You once again.

I wanted to see Your face and keep my hope up just like before.

Did I walk astray?

In my path it seems that You’re not there?

Please straighten things out for me because I cannot figure this one out on my own.

My body is cold and my spirit is weak

Embrace me Lord and keep me warm in Your loving hand

I have fallen and I can’t stand on my own.

Raise me up again and let me hold Your banner in this warfare

Anoint me and I will be Your warrior.

Why do I still doubt You?

It is my faith.

It is the barrier that I have built between us.

Crush this shell in my heart like the way You have crushed the walls of Jericho

Marry me and dwell in my temple as You have promised

I know You have chosen me among others

Save me from myself for I am causing all the doubts in me

Sanctify me.

Purify my mind.

Break my heart and make it Yours, just like what You have promised.

In the midst of my doubts, I know in my heart You will come and save me.

Create Something Every Day Challenge: Day 7

What if you have your very own, customized, tailor-fitted life manual made especially for you, by YOU!

Surprised?

Me too!

Can you imagine how fantastic that idea is? Thanks to Kara Gott Warner, I got a light bulb moment about this when I read the last principle of her 7-day journal challenge. Today is the last day, and I was so excited to read all about the principle for today. Basically it talks about creating a new habit. Since it’s the last day, I was already expecting that I’ll bring home something great and fruitful from Kara, and she didn’t fail me.

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So what’s my light bulb moment all about?

It’s about having your very own life manual. Kara is right. A lot of us here keeps on writing and writing and writing… but what do we do to them afterwards? What do we do to our notebooks, papers, blog sites, etc.? How many of us here get to review their write ups after a week, a month, or a year? Where’s the last diary or journal you’ve ever written on? Can you still find it? If you can’t find it, I don’t expect you to find your first diary or journal either. Get the idea?

So what am I pointing out? My friends, what’s the very reason why you’re keeping a journal, a diary, or a blog site? Is it just to express your thoughts and feelings? Do they only serve as emotional sponge? What happens after that? How many of us here gets the change to re-read our beautiful insights after it has been written or posted? If you believe that, what you’ve written is something meaningful, insightful, and worth reading, then why not read it AGAIN?

What we’re writing at this very moment is very crucial? Why? Because it is a figment of our own thoughts. It freshly came from our ideas. It’s raw. The ideas are creating new neuro-pathways (ooops that’s a big word) whenever we are imagining things or we are creating something new. Because of that, I believe those outputs need to be revisited to be rejuvenated again and be remembered of who we truly are. Besides, like what Kara said on the challenge:

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You’re the only one who knows who you are! The best advise you can get is can be provided by none other than the voice of your inner self (that is if you’re sane… if you get what I mean 😉 )

So my challenge for everyone who’s keeping a journal, a diary, or a blog site is; try to go back to the old pages and re-read what you’ve written in the past and see if you’ll have any new realizations from those outputs. I bet you’ll have one for sure. Write about those new realizations and share your new outputs if you want to. That way, we can all learn and relearn, and that will help us in the process of making ourselves a better person. But of course, we don’t only have to read and re-read our outputs; we also have to apply them. Remember,

Knowledge turned action is wisdom.

Create that habit of revisiting your work and relearn from it.

Have a pleasant weekend everyone!

With love and respect,

Ms. Rai

Create Something Every Day Challenge: Day 4

Have you ever read an article or a blog that doesn’t make any sense to you? Forget about grammar and spelling. Have you ever read an article that leads you to nowhere? I have, and I don’t want my blogs to be anywhere near that. Why? Simply because my audience (if ever I have one) deserves something better.

When I write blogs, I see to it that I have a certain concept in mind and I’m not just throwing out words. I wanted to make sure that my readers (if ever I have one) can take home some of the thoughts I’m sharing. I don’t want my articles to be a source of hatred, ill-feeling, and ugly misinterpretations. I want my blogs to have at least a positive impact to other people’s lives.

Surely, I talk a lot. But before I speak, I see to it that my thoughts are grounded by facts, not gossips, or at least it’s grounded by first-hand experience. I don’t want my readers to become shock absorbers. They don’t deserve reading rants and receiving those negative vibes. As much as possible, I write materials that gives out positivism.

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I want to be a creator. That includes creating concepts that serve people; something where they can learn, and as much a possible, help them produce another concept that can serve them better and others who are following them. Again, I’m a strong believer of Law of Attraction, that’s why I choose to write more about positive things than having negative outputs. I may be writing some things that may not look good at first, but then again, every bad situation leads to something better ( that’s just my personal belief 😛 )

Anyway, That’s it for today.

With love and respect,

Your Pen Guardian