No Air

Is it because I’m under your spell

That’s why my skin’s numb, though you have battered me enough

I struggle for myself as I push forward

You drag me back to the place where I was before

I push harder to find out, it is you who pulls me back again

I’m nailed with you and only you

No questions asked, I follow you blindly

I take every word, not a single complaint

I follow you blindly without a doubt

You suffocate me, Honey

But I liked it anyway

You mesmerized me with each word you utter

Without reservations, I move into you

No second thoughts, I came in closer with a bright face

Now it’s clear to see that I stepped in your quicksand

Can’t move away and I’m here with you, drowning yet I liked it anyway

When will I wake up and say everything will turn around for me

To face myself in the mirror and say “You’re beautiful and you’ll be fine”

My heart is tired and my soul is tattered

For once, let me get out of this to save myself and be myself again

L

Zip your lips,
Keep it shut,
Put your hand on you mouth and hold it right there,
Yes hold it right there
You’ve said a lot
It’s not enough
Not a quarter of it is true but believe like it’s true,
Yes you believe it,
Oh c’mon stop digging your own grave.
The more you talk, the more you sink.
The more you try, the more you lie.
The more you cry, the more i think about that i’m right about you.
Oh yeah, i’m so right about you!
You’re not a victim,
Keep pretending,
With your bag of tricks full of deceipt, all lies
Now it’s in the air
Sir hold it right there
Wait just a sec
I’m not done yet so hear me out, I’m alive
Even better
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you left
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you lied
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you died
Zip your lips,
Keep it shut,
Put your hand on you mouth and hold it right there,
Yes hold it right there
You’ve said a lot
It’s not enough
Not a quarter of it is true but believe like it’s true,
yes you believe it,
Oh c’mon stop digging your own grave.
The more you talk, the more you sink.
The more you try, the more you lie.
The more you cry, the more i think about that i’m right about you.
Oh yeah, i’m so right about you!
You’re not a victim,
Keep pretending,
With your bag of tricks full of deceit, all lies
Now it’s in the air
Sir hold it right there
Wait just a sec
I’m not done yet so hear me out, I’m alive
Even better
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you left
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you lied
I swear you will regret it,
Yes you will regret the moment that you died

Create Something Every Day Challenge: Day 6

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Almost done! Woohoo!!! And our topic for today is… tah-dah!

Uhmm… Can we skip this part?

The challenge for today entails doing something we fear. Very challenging, huh? Let’s see.

Let me tell you a little secret. In all my articles and in my job, I know I may sound that I’m confident. Actually I’m not. In fact, I’m scared of people (although my work is always, ALWAYS related to customer service). I am too scared to approach people because, number one: I fear REJECTION! Rejection is such a big word for me because it can bruise my ego. I believe I’m not the only one suffering from this kind of fear.

Usually, I will let opportunity pass me by, especially if the job description includes ‘ME’ calling out to the clients or I’m the first one to approach the client. I know being a sales person is very rewarding, but if you will offer me that kind of job… hmmm… I think I’ll pass. Next job order please!

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Recently, I received a great news from my manager. Finally, I’m a licensed Financial Advisor! Woohoo! Wait! So that means, I’ll start doing the field work. That means, I have to approach people. That means, people will start running away from me because they think I’m about to sell them something. That means, I will be treated like network marketers. That means, I will be rejected over, and over, and over, and over… time and time again. Wow! What a bunch of positive thoughts I got there!

I have so many things that I fear relating to this financial solutions career that I’m trying to pursue, due to different factors, which I will discuss on a separate blog in the near future. 😉 . I’ve seen it worked for other people and I wish for it to work for me as well, because it’s a noble profession that I can truly be proud of. For me, it’s not going to be job but a noble cause. Did I say noble?

BUT! To achieve success in that kind of career, there are a lot of work that needs to be done within ‘ME’. I have to polish my skills. I have to polish how I convey messages to other people, because I’m prone of being misinterpreted. Whew! I know. I know. It’s not something new. But it is what it is and I know I have to get rid of my fears. I just have to strengthen myself in every means and ways I can possibly do.

So what are my activities for today that will help me conquer my fear:

  1. I will go back to the list I created during our training (it’s a list of prospect clients within my circle)
  2. I will imagine encountering those people and meeting them face to face (yayks!)
  3. I will create my script (yes, script) so I won’t stutter or I will not lose control of my thoughts during presentation
  4. Schedule appointments with prospect clients
  5. Good luck to me!

Or maybe I can ask a friend to help me out… I think that may help.

Now I’m left with no other options but to go through the process. Deep breathing… relax! 🙂 Yes! I’m saying this with conviction while trembling! It’s time to act despite of fear.

I’m gonna do this! Go! Go! Go

Wish me luck guys! I’ll do these things today.

How about you? What are the things you fear that you would like to conquer today?

With love and respect,

Ms. Rai